Monday, August 01, 2005
There's a difference in what we long for, what we settle for, and who we are meant for.
mood - really good . . .
music- nothing right now ..
alrighty.. so last night
thomas got home from campiiing.. or well yesterday afternoon. and he called when he got home and i went over there... becauseeeeeee i wnted to .. . lol. . . alright.. so then we hung out for a little and took a nap because we were both tired and then we woke up and we were going to go out to dnner. so we went down to barefoot bay . . . to
steves house . and then we went to go get thomas' money from this guy. well there were a lotta people over there. mainly guys.. and they were all saying i was pretty and stuff (which made me happy cause i dont hear it all tooo often) and they were telling
thomas how he has such a great girl. so i was happy and
thomas was happy so we were allll happy . . . . n
thomas was like yeah i got a good girl . . . and i was all happy cause ya know i love compliments lol . so i dont know whats going on.. well ... then everyone was drinking but i dont like drinking alll to much because i get
sick which is
gayyyyy =( . . . and everyone was like "thats really respectable" so thats cool . and i got home early thanks to
thomas. which was really good.. it was a good night despite all the drunkess of everonye lol... and he was sooo sweet to me. . and hes like "its nice when my friends like my girl cause its like ..your mine" lol so compliments all night it was awesome... and aahhhh lol . . . well im going to go relax for a little while.. before i go over to
thomas'. . . were going fishing! lol... ahah i havent done that in a long time . or we are going out to dinner or we are going somewhere which is cool.....
write more later xoxo
Posted at 8/1/2005 9:55:06 am by xOxAlliexOx
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Love is giving someone the ability to destroy you and trusting them not to.
mood- fhk;ldfjglkjfkljsdfg;ldfkg - people annoy me
music- none right now . . .
alright.. well yesterady was fun shopping! lol it was funnnny too. i got new MAC makeup some new bebe stuff andd some stuff from pacsun . . and i dont know what else.. but it was fun.. then i came home and went to thomas' . . . and thennn i went home again and made some lemon pedicure stuff and some strawberry face mask stuff lol.. it was... well interesting.. lol .. and mannn when i was in the store getting all my stuff thomas called me and my mom was like allie get off the phone... because i had to help with the grocerys . . understandable.. and then he called back while i was in the car.. and i had to go because i had to get out soon and unload the grocerys... and thennnnn my mom said shed do the rest.. i called him back.. and then i had to go AGAIN.. and thennnn my mom was like okay now you can call him back.. but he called me back before i could call him back.. lol . . . and we talked for awhile.. like an hour or hour and a half.. something.. because he had to go bc it wasnt his phone so i was like alright.. i might be staying at his house tonight.. but im not sure i havent decided if i want to or not. so i dont know . . . . . . . . .
Wellll im going to go clean and then go to Tnt's . . . . and then.. wow i dont know! lol
ill write more later xoxox
Posted at 7/30/2005 3:06:59 pm by xOxAlliexOx
Friday, July 29, 2005
x o x - Sometimes just holding hands is holding onto everything. - x o x
mood- okay i guess...
music- mariah carey - we belong together, always be my baby - ahhh these songs.. mean so much..
alright.. well im getting ready to go to Orlando for the day. . . anddd i dont really know.. my head is just spinning . . . . im so full of mixed emotions its crazy.
so i think i need to stop beating around the bush and let everyone know yeah i love him... im sure everyone knows it. . . . . and i know he knows it .. i was just thinking about it today... ... 3 years of my life... hes been with me and a part of me and meant so much to me. . . i just cant believe its been that long. through all the birthdays and laughs and holidays and arguments and fights and great times and lunches and movies and dinners and the trips and the i love yous.. i mean.. theres the .... i guess love you feel when youve known/dated someone for 2 months... and then theres the love thats there thats taken 3 years to build up, work at, and understand. i believe that you could ... love someone but its not the same love. i love a lot of people. . . and i tell them.. but this is one hell of a different kind of love.. it has a whole different meaning.. like it should be a whole different word. and people tell me not to love him... but its just not that easy. hes always been there... even if we were fighting.. i could still call him and it would be a matter of seconds before he was there.. before i had a shoulder to cry on before i had a hand to hold. . . . i keep replaying last night over and over in my head. . . . i went over to his house to get the key to take care of brandi... and i got the key and i was getting ready to leave and he came over and opened my car door and picked me up and hugged me and said ill see you when i get back ill call you when i get a chance i love you and i have to go or they will leave me here. it made me feel so ... tingly inside. . . i love it when he hugs me and carrys me around. lol i know it sounds crazy. but im so little compared to him that he can just carry me around like nothing and i love it .. . .i mean im 5'1'' and hes 6'4'' almost 6'5'' . . . . thats just a little bit of a difference . its crazy. i cant wait til he gets home. .
i just... love him ...
well i gotta get going.. to thomas' to check on brandi and thennn to ORLANDOOO ...chyeah. .
<3
Posted at 7/29/2005 7:49:13 am by xOxAlliexOx
Thursday, July 28, 2005
<3 You'll always be a part of me <3
mood- alright i guess
music- the pussycat dolls - dont cha... AHH i love this song lol
Alright.. so thomas went camping with steve, raymond and his mom n dad... and i said i'd let brandi (there boxer) out n walk her n stuff like that. lasstttt year i went with them.. but theres just too much to do this year... and i gotta work so ill take care of the dog and mail lol.
well right now.. i dont know how to feel.. i dont think i need to write a name.. because im sure that everyone will understand who im talking about. ...
wellllll.... im getting kind of aggravated... because.. tnt needs to get a steady job or his GED... he promised me he would... and yeah okay hes working with his brother... thats fine as long as its a source of stable income. i dont know of any way to help him... because he honestly doesnt need my help. he knows it too. and he doesnt need any handouts.. he could do alot if he applied himself. i love him and i dont really understand why... i guess always have always will. and i just want to see him do good. and its getting to me ... its ... just i dont really know. i mean ive been with him everyday since he moved back home. but i just want him to do good.. and be happy.. and its so hard... because i love him and i want to give him everything.. but i cant because that wont help at all. he knows what he has to do.. i just hope he does it .. and takes care of his responsibilites... i dont really know why im posting thing.. except for the fact that i care about him and love him and hes part of my life. and this is supposed to be about my life right? well.. here it is .. im honestly done with people telling me who to care about who to be friends with and whos worth my time or not... i respect that everyone is looking out for me... but some feelings inside me cant change.. he can truly be the sweetest person in the world.. and then he can be the biggest asshole. but regardless im going to styll going to love him and all that good stuff... i cant explain it.. but now that i have written all this .. i think i am going to leave everything completely up to him.. so i hope everything works out...i mean.. weve been together on and off for almost 3 years.. thats a pretty good amount of time.... so i honestly dont know what going to happen... but i feel better that i got all that out . . . . .
well misznicolegabriellefonseca isnt mad at me anymore.. which is good.. i can see where she was mad... but at the same time.. it kind of made me mad.. but its all done and over with so its alll goood.. no worries. . . . . . . . .
well guys i think im going to go... im probably going to talk to tnt for a little and then go to sleep cause im head over to orlando for a little while 2morrow.. .
Baby
I know you like me
I know you do
Thats why whenever I come around
She's all over you
I know you want it
It's easy to see
And in the back of your mind
I know you wanna be with me
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
Don't cha
Fight the feeling
Leave it alone
Let's keep it friendly
You have to play fair
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
Don't cha
I know I'm on your mind
I know we always have a good time
I'm your friend
I'm fun
And I'm fine
I aint lying
Look at me
You aint blind
I know I'm on your mind
I know we always have a good time
I'm your friend
I'm fun
And I'm fine
I aint lying
Look at me
You aint blind
Maybe next lifetime
Possibly
Until then old friend
Our secret is safe with me
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
Don't cha
<3<3<3<3<3<3
kisses x 10000
Posted at 7/28/2005 6:39:12 pm by xOxAlliexOx
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
My friends say I'm crazy and I agree, But that's okay cause that's the way I like to be! <3
I woke up with a headache from the night before
cause sometimes I drink
I spent the night with my head in a toilet bowl
that's where I like to think
<3 <3 <3
aha... thats what i was sayin after port saint johns. . . . .but we'll get back to that some other time ! =)
Mood- good good . .
Music- O.A.R. ahhh <3 it . . .
well anyways. so today i woke up.. watched maury.. talked to thomas.. and then went to work... i was working with paul today so that was cool .. lol im usually alone so its cool to have someone to talk to. well he had his skateboard cause thats how he got to work today.. wellll... i decided to skateboard at work. . . lol didnt go too too well. but hey i got better as the day went on. but then... i did this trick thing.. and i almost got it.. and then i fell flat on my ass.. i ate major shit on that one! lol. ahhh i busted my ass so bad. it hurttttt. lol i was laughing so hard my stomach hurt. and paul laughed at me too lol. well.. who wouldnt!?! okay so all day i was trying to accomplish that trick thing.. and then i thought it would hurt my foot cause i only had flip flops .. so i was doing it bare foot.. and paul let me try and use his shoes.. well considering they were 6 sizes too big.. and i couldnt even walk in them.. that didnt work either. lol so that was my day at work. . . lol
wellllllllll what else... i didnt do too much else.. i was really tired today.. so i came home and chylled and talked to thomas and uncle tim and ann and robert.. so i guess im going with thomas and robert when they do whatever they do tomrrow.... so ... i guess thats cool? they play with racoons.. lolol.. sureee...
well what else... ahaha i already said that.. everyone should download
O.A.R. they're great im like
addicted. . . lol so if ur looknig for something new to listen to download it!
well guys i think im gonna get going.. i gotta get up real early 2morrow which means goin to bed early tonight!!
xOxOx i <3 yOu.
Posted at 7/12/2005 8:06:24 pm by xOxAlliexOx
Monday, July 11, 2005
I know we had our problems, I can't remember one <3
[x] Mood - goood
[x] music - ahh a whole buncha shyt. . =)
well lets see... whats happened since thr last time i wrote.. which was like a day ago.. lol. . . well yesterday was like a chyll day. i havent been feeling great.. my muscles are all sore.. but its okay.. well i slept in .. and then i called thomas to see if we were going four wheeling or not. and i guess uncle tim decided everyone had to do something else all day so that wasnt cool. . . well then i went and chylled and watched a movie or 2. and thats cool. then i talked to thomas for a little while and we talked about going to orlando for a day or 2 . that would be cool. so wow i dont know.today im going to solara, the gym, the mall... etc.. lol and then ima go to see thomas? i dunno... sorry such a short entry.. ill write more later. xoxo
Posted at 7/11/2005 9:34:03 am by xOxAlliexOx
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Wishing to be the friction in yOur jeans <3
Mood - Pretty good Pretty good
Music - Fall out boy, hawthorne heights etc.
Okay.. so lets see.. its been.. quiet a while since i wrote in this thing... sine like march or april.. lol .. its okay though. so schools been out for like a month... and its been one hell of a summer. lol josh moved to AZ. . . =( ..yeah it sucks.. Craig and Aaron are in pittsburgh. hmmm .. Brains in boston.. Nicoles in Miami . . .Nikkis in NY. . Caitlyns in Jersey. . . yep.. im here.. lol but whateverr..
so... lets see whats been going on . . . Weeellll.. before nicole left for miami i was with her from monday til thursday. n we went to the movies... had a interesting fourth of july. uhh..... dyed her cat ( her names ashley and shes white) we dyed her pink,purple,blue neon.. tried green but it didnt come out as bright as the other ones.. we went and saw mr. and mrs. smith.. it was good... well i left for work thursday.. and after work i came home went to sports authority. went to CVS... and thenn called Thomas. well we were trying to make some plans.. and then uncle tim asked if u wanted to stay over.. and my wonderful mother said yes! lol. . . so they all came and picked me up and we all chylled. we went to dennys.. at like 11... or so.. and then we got back to the house around 12. well everyone went to sleep and me and thomas stayed up and watched bad boys 2 for a little while.. then i went to sleep. i stayed in anns room with her for the night. n then i woke up.. and around 10 i left to go to the gym with nicole. and then i came home and chylled.. and thats about all ive done today... so i just got off the phone with thomas.. i dont know why we always fight.. i dont know why he gets so mad at me ... especially for me talking to some other guy and because i kissed (jussst kissed) another guy while he had a girlfriend. hes mad at me for it. i dont get how everythings my fault. but its okay. i just wish he would stop accusing me of so much. he had a girlfriend. he was with someone else. and im wrong for kissing a guy... thats cool... well i have to go.. ill write more later...
<3
Posted at 7/9/2005 7:07:36 pm by xOxAlliexOx
Sunday, April 10, 2005
- x O x - - » For every moment you spend angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness. « - - x O x -
|mOOd| » its early..
|mUsIc| Sublime
Okay.. so i havent written since... thursday? okay well friday was okay... it was a gOOd day til someone messed it up.. i dont think im going to write the whole story out because its stupid and there was absolutly no point for it... but anyways... befOre it turned shitty... friday was suchhhh a good day! so my parents went to DaytOna n left me herrrre... so i went out with
Kev after school... and then he brought me home agian... n then
AarOn came Over <3 and then we got sOme taco beLL and then
Ryan Craig Alyssa n
Brian came over. n then
ryan and
aaron went through my closet and decided to get dressed up.. lol so they did a fashion show.. lol i cant wait to get the pictures developed tOday!! lol its gOnna be GREAT! lol .. well that was great... n then my brother had told me he went by the house and saw all the cars and asked who was over.. lol i was like uhh just some friends.. lol n then all that pointless shit happened.. n then
Brian had to leave.. sO me
Alyssa Ryan Craig n
AarOn<3 went to the beach. that was fun. it made me forget about all the shittyness... lol and then we got back in the car n drove around for awhile.. i dont even know where we went because i was havin too much fun! lol. well we ended up lyke followin this one black mustang... n tha guy ended up bein really cool... we went to tha mall n he was all showin off.. lol it was cute. his names
matt n he was lyke im bored i wanna do something! lol n he asked us what we were doing n that was nOt a damnnnn thing lol .. okay so after that we jus drove back to my house cause they hadda drop me off because i hadda work yesterday morning.... okay so then mORE bullllllshit happened... n then i guess they took
alyssa home n everyone went home... so then i talked tO
AarOn on tha phone for awhile... and then went to sleep so i could get up in the morning..okay so that was friday.. and then saturday i worked til 4... and got a uhh...unexpected visit... thennnn
dana came in at lyke 12... what a lazyass.. lol .. n we did nothing at work allll day. there was nothing to do.. it was lyke ahhhhhhhh lol so we did my hair =) lol i burned him with a straightener lol i was lyke ooooops...okay n then last nite at lyke 8 i went to
craigs... i had to wait at taco bell for 25 mintues! i was lyke what tha efff... n then we gOt to
craigsz n it was
ryan dave craig n
alyssa.. n then
stephanie came over.. n then me
Ryan and
stephanie went to pick up
aaron. n then we got back to
Craigs n jus hung out all nite... n i left at 11:30 n i guess they left to take
alyssa home too.... i just dont get why if they were already going to palm bay why they couldnt just take me too.. .because of the other nite... which is done dropped and shit n its lyke okay.. i really feel lyke theyre mad at me.. they swear they arent but itslyke okay... =\ ..so i dont know.. its lyke errrrr.... and im really upset because i lOve riding with them n stuff n now because of one asshole i cant... at least not for a little while... which is stupid.... stupid.. and stupider... i dont know right now... i dont know how to feel.. i feel realllly weird... maybe its just to early... it feels lyke somethings wrong... i hate this feeling... i dont know what to do... maybe when i get the pictures developed today ill be in a better mood... i dont know... its lyke lyke ERRR... but i think ima get outta here.... leave a comment if you wanna... if not.. ohhhh fuckin well... lol
xOx later Hatersz
<3 allie
Posted at 4/10/2005 5:33:05 am by xOxAlliexOx
Thursday, April 07, 2005
<3 I look at you looking at me and it feels like a feeling that’s meant to be <3
| mOOd | good good
| mUsIc | nuthin really right now.. on different compp
HOkay.. sO today was a GreeaAt day!! got to zero period.. organized some stuff.. got bored.. got a pass to Coach Carters and left.. then went to first period.. did my work.. and well did my 5th period homework... then went to 2nd pd.. did a lab kinda while lookin at jessicas yearbook from 8th grade at central.. thenn went to coach carters for 3rd.. and he wasnt there but coach rice was.. did what we were supposed to do then went n bugged coach rice the best of the period.. lol .. 4th period.. did more of my 5th period homework.. n texted kevaroni for awhile... got to see aaron before class tho so that made me happy. he always makes me smile.. it was funny. lol then went to 5th period.. saw aaron on the way to fifth n saw coach carter toooo lol .. thenn in 5th i took my test i let blake copy everything, i didnt turn my worksheets in and i have to finish one thing so i will turn them in tomorrow.. okay so then.. after 5th period i went to 6th kinda.. lol i went n met kathrine lyke usual.. waited for aaron lyke usual.. n then talked to aaron for a little then went to coach balgos class.. decided when i got there i was thristy so i got outta class to go to get some soda.. of course the soda machines were acess limited.. so we went to that science room thinger and got sodas outta there vending machines.. which was cool.. lol ive never been in there before there are so many snakes n shit it was preeeety damn cool.. so after that me n kathrine went to coach balgos to take a test.. we took the test or well i took it and she copied.. then all ofa sudden calvin walks in! with a pass for me to get outta class n go to Coach J's !!! i was lyke HOLY SHIT YESSS! lol o man they are the greatest! so then i leave n kathrine jus kinda sneaks out the door, n then we see sami brandon chelsea n everyone else! they alllll got outta class!! lol it was great i love sami so much lol then.. we decided to go get AarOn!! so we went to coach j's put our stuff down n got him to sign a pass for me kathrine sami calvin chelsea n brandon to be in the construction room because no one else was in there.. n then.. we went to aarons class.. wrote his name under chelseas n got him outta class.. lol he was gettin his stuff n was lyke uhh... okay? and then he looked out the window n saw all of us! lol n then he smiled n came with us! then he went to the liftathon for a couple minutes then back to the construction room n then we left to go to coach j's n leave sami n calvin in the construction room.. lol.. n coach j said we could stay with him n he told me n kathrine we could come back anytime! ahhh i love him hes soooo pimp .. i dont even have his class and he lets me stay in there lol . ahh it was just a great day!! .. but then i had to go to work.. and that was kinda boring and no one really came in so it wasnt too much to do.. i played that stupid bejeweled game on my phone for lyke 2 hrs n i got a score of over 45000 which totally beats aarons score n i was lyke YESSS n then my phone fuking died! how gay! lol so it didnt record my high score.. it definetly pissed me off.. but whatever! lol .. 2morrow my parents are going to daytona for dinner n stuff.. .yess lol kev is bringin aaron over for me! so we can have some time together! =) i love him so much ahh its unbelieveable! he just makes me so happy.. and is so sweet and hes just the greatest person in the world... he treats me so great.. like im really something special.. and i love him for that.. and i love him for so many other reasons.. and people can definetly see how happy we r.. so that makes me even happier!! but okay.. its rainin pretty bad n im hungry so ima go get myself a sub n jus chyll for a little!! il write more later!!
xOx Later Hatersz!!
oOoOoOhh And i love you Mr. Adams!! xOx
xOx lOve Alwaysz
<3 Allie
Posted at 4/7/2005 5:16:34 pm by xOxAlliexOx
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
x O x You’re my colored picture in a world of black and white x O x
|mOOd| great
|mUsIc| everything! as usual!!
okay.. so today.. was a good day.. another fun filled day at school.. not really but hey.. lol . so AarOn came over today.. it made me happy.. we hung out n watched a movie n stuff n talked.. o man i could talk to this kid for hours.. its so great.. hes so understanding.. and then i was on his sn... or well i was on the comp n his sn was on.. and a girl imed him.. and i had lyke bitched at her before.. but i was nice and apologized and omg she told me this stuff about aaron n i almost cried.. for a good, happy reason!! she was lyke.. well you have nothing to worry about. because he loves you. and i was lyke omg.. lol and i knew he loved me but him tellin someone else that.. it just makes it so nice.. it made me really happy.. and he read me n blakes note.. which was funnnnny.. lololol... wowowowow... so i have to read a book for english so i dont think ima be making this a long entry. just a little ta let ya know whats gOin on!! .. so i dont know what im doin this weekend.. but i cant wait becaues im sure its gona be fun.. 32 days left of school.. for me anyways! lol .. n aaron has a dr.'s appt. next tuesday... uhhhtoo... n its to schedule his surgery.. which sucks ballsz... but wow ... now that im thinking about it i really have a lot of homeowkr to do... lol... ohhhh and.. i really love it that i can trust aaron now.. i know i know i dont trust lyke.. anyone.. but its totally differnet with him.. and he has given me no reason not to trust him.. i know hes not going to leave me or cheat on me.. i know hes not going to pick any other girls over me.. and it makes me sooooo happy.. i mean today.. just sittin with him n holding him.. it was the greatest feeling in the world.. but damn i gotta do homework.. maybe ill write more later tonite!! xOxOx
Later Hatersz!! aha... lots of them.. ohhhh fukking well =)
xOx lOve
<3 Allie
Posted at 4/6/2005 6:58:15 pm by xOxAlliexOx
